THE CONVERSATION TAKES A NASTY TURN

the ego thought it was talking to the superego but it was talking to the id ... things seemed very snug and spacey just enough story just enough abstraction to make a telling point ... on the average a nice thing to hear ... but not this time ... this time the conversation took on a cynical turn ... and the point it came to turned against the ego ... you only talk to her because you want to live forever and you know that's well beyond your means ... what are you after all what do you do to justify your life ... a smidgin of understanding a touch of judgment a lot of calculation ... what's that to her her decision her compassion her joy ... if anyone should live forever it should be her ... what are you to her ... and what more to the point is she to you ... I tell you my pain my pleasure my drive are more to her than all your thinking your concepts your words and yes even your technique ... what you make is substantial even as you prove there is no substance ... she's substantial ... but to you she's invisible ... you who must see to feel